The silence between them is profound
She yearns so much
for a hug from him
or just a gentle touch.
But he turns away and she feels frozen
by the coldness he displays.
Feelings of love unrequited
hits her like a mountain waves.
She would do anything
if this relationship she could save.
His phone rings, he answers it and smiles,
“I am going to meet Sam for a drink,” he says
But of course she knows he lies.
“I know about her,” she says.
He looks at her and there is no surprise in his eyes,
He offers no ostentatious words of denial.
Unperturbed by his betrayal
“Don’t wait up for me,” he says.
His words cut her like a knife
Her heart is bleeding
She feels like screaming
But she is numbed by his indifference
An apology, or even a denial,
Anything would have been better
than his cold indifference.
Daintily she dances, floating in the wind,
Twirling about on long slender legs,
Happy and carefree.
She is moving gracefully to the music,
There is laughter in her eyes,
At fifteen she is developing the body of a woman,
But she still has the innocence of a child.
Dance on my dear, dance on,
Enjoy your carefree years,
With adulthood comes responsibility,
There will be less time to dance,
But you will remember this moment,
And the other happy memories.
Before I met you I was just an ordinary guy,
Chasing all the girls,
Love then and leave them was my motto,
To me it was just a game.
There was no real commitment,
And that was how I wanted it to be,
I wanted to have them all and yet be free.
But then you walked into my life,
And girl you rocked my world,
I took one look at you and knew,
You were no ordinary girl.
I tried so hard not to fall for you,
But against my will I did,
And I knew my days of chasing girls were over
Because all I wanted was to be with you.
My charm didn’t work on you,
Like it did with all the others,
You said I was just a player,
And you could do much better.
I tried so hard to win your heart,
I tried to make you see,
That this was not a game I played,
My love for you was real.
I couldn’t make you slip away,
I knew I had to change.
Now I am a much better person,
And it is all because of you,
You say you are proud of me,
And I just want you to know,
It is you who is responsible,
For the man I have become.
It’s been so many years since you went away,
The memories still lingers,
I think of you everyday,
I miss your smile and laughter,
I miss the good times that we shared,
The angels came so quickly,
There was no time to say goodbye,
Every time I think of this it brings tears to my eyes.
At times I feel your presence near me,
When I am in deep despair,
I can almost hear you saying,
“Don’t cry my dear I’m here,
I will never leave you,
So there is no need to say goodbye.
Enjoy your life, be happy this is what I wish for you.
I will be waiting on the other side to welcome you,
When the angels bring you home.
I want to trust you but my heart is so afraid,
You say you have changed,
But how can I be sure,
I want to believe you,
But I don’t want to have to relive,
The heartache of the past.
Painful memories serves as a reminder,
Of the risks I have taken,
And the promises that have been broken.
I want to stay afloat,
Not suffocating in this love,
Drowning in my tears,
Knowing that your loyalty is not here.